Disappointment

I'm a bit disappointed today. My goal for all this year has been to get under 100kg by the end of it. That's over 30kg away. And time wise - we're only 17 weeks until the end of the year... so technically I'd have to lose almost 2kg a week, AND not have any weeks where I gained or stayed the same. Bit disappointed in myself, as it was a realistic goal when I set it at the start of the year, but I've just gone up and down since then, without any lasting weight loss.

Habits

I've been thinking, and really - I feel that I'm fat because of habits. And I think others would probably be the same!

Some BAD habits of mine that I really must break:

• getting takeout for dinner on the way home from swimming lessons
• eating while I'm studying
• eating when I'm stressed
• eating to celebrate
• eating out for lunch - lunch is a meal that I strangely struggle with!
• drinking things other than water
• being unorganised with meals and going for the easy option

I do think that once I'm in a habit of doing things, it's something that comes naturally. So I'm thinking of maybe printing out these habits, putting them on my fridge - maybe put reminders in my phone at certain times etc. 

Habits that I want to have

• drinking enough water each day (which for my current body weight is over 3L!)
• preparing healthy lunches in advance
• preparing healthy snacks in advance
• preparing healthy dinners in advance - ie maybe using the slow cooker for when we have swimming lessons
• switch snacking while studying to drinking herbal teas

I do think organisation is a huge thing, and I'm hoping the planner that I've bought as well as somee other things are going to help. I'm going to make sure that I keep menu planning, and prepping the food for each day in advance so that the guess work is done. I also feel that by making sure that we aren't eating out for the sake of it - we might be able to afford a meal out here and there as a treat that's budgeted for both in money and in points. 

Pinterest!

Must do a post about how much I LOVE Pinterest!!! I've been an addict for a while, however it is so useful!

Here I use it as a virtual cookbook for all the recipes that I find online.

Here I use it as a motivation board. 

Here I use it to save health related things such as exercise etc. 

The possibilities are endless. I have thousands and thousands of pins. 

Blog Hop Common Chaos Chronicle

After deciding to blog about my weight loss journey, I managed to stumble across this post on another blog that I read, and I thought I'd jump on the bandwagon.

A little about me - my name is Jade, I'm a wife of one, mum of two. A full time uni student. And I'm fat. We want to have another child. It's been on the cards for a while, but keeps being pushed back for one reason or another. The current reason being - I want to lose weight before falling pregnant.

I was doing Michelle Bridge's 12WBT, but decided to try something different. I'm now doing Weight Watchers. I started 2 weeks ago at 132.1kg. I'm hoping to say goodbye to the 130s at the next weigh in.

My main problem is willpower. I have none. And organisation. I find the house runs so much better when I'm organised. It's just finding the time to BE organised!!!

What's on YOUR Skinny List?

I dare say this list will get redone, and added to as time goes on!

• sit on the floor with no pins and needles
• run around with the kids without getting puffed
• walk into any clothing store and be able to buy something that fits
• go into the 'normal' clothes section of stores
• not have to worry if rejection is due to my size
• RUN
• wear high heels
• have another baby

Sabotage Frustration!

Went out today. Ate about a gazillion points.

I shared a bowl of chips with gravy. With a chocolate milkshake. THEN I had a piece chocolate cake. AND a skim cappuccino (yup cause the skim will make a HUGE difference after all that!!). Going to have to try and add up the points.

So frustrated! I want to get to 100kg before we have another baby. That has been my goal ALL year. But I'm not getting there.

Tonight for dinner is going to be rissoles (3pts) and point free stir fry veg to try and minimise the damage.

I need to work out WHY I do this to myself! I felt like crap afterwards. Things like milkshake and chocolate cake DO NOT agree with me - ie I'm on the loo, I get bad stomach cramps. I feel awful. I know this. Yet I still do it!

ALTHOUGH - I've had a think, and previously eating a huge amount was probably NORMAL. And I wouldn't have adjusted my eating habits tonight to adjust for it. So I do think that I have made a big step forward.

Fortnightly Menu Plan

Dinners

• (Quorn) Sausages with mash and onion gravy
• Sweet potato, red onion and feta frittata
• Roasted chickpea and spinach curry
• Corned beef with mustard chive sauce 
• Veggie soup
• Veggie pizza
• Caramelised pork with sweet potato mash and apple

I also do a cook up with my mum every so often and freeze dinners. So at the moment we also have meatloaf, rissoles, soup, spaghetti bolognaise, penang curry, thai peanut chicken and some more I'm sure already in the freezer ready to go. I'd LOVE to hear of WW friendly recipes that freeze well :).

Lunches

• Wraps
• Sandwhiches
• Leftovers
• Eggs and vegemite on toast

Breakfasts

• Weetbix
• Porridge
• Toast

Snacks

• Herbal tea (I bought a HEAP at the shops today - licorice; mint and lavender; honey and lemon; green and I'm sure some more!)
• Yoghurt
• Fruit
• WW meeting snacks
• Lite and creamy icecream slices (only 2 points!)
• Jelly

Back on track

SW: 132.1kg
CW: 130.9kg
GW: 99kg (personal goal)

A couple of weeks ago I decided to give Weight Watchers a go. Decided that I need the people contact. I'm liking it so far, on Week 3. Lost 1.2kg so far, and hoping lots more to come! I've set myself a personal goal of 99kg. I don't think I've weighed that since I got married. I realise that there will be more kilos to lose after that - my WW set goal is about 55-65kg - but I'll just reassess what I'm happy with as the time goes on.

Went shopping today - for lots of healthy foods. Will be a good week and I'm aiming to see a bigger loss on the scales next week!